New surroundings

Well I'm home from a weekend at Rachel's family and I'm still getting a feel for them, but all and all its been a good time I believe.  But what I liked about it is that we were with people who wanted us to be there and weren't paid for it.  An they tried to make sure that I felt welcome and I tried to be sociable, which was hard for me; an I'm trying to work through that as best I can anyway it's been fun later taters

Interesting turn of events

It's been a interesting couple of weeks as of late, like for example met my significant other biological family recently and yes she's adopted.  An I've got a cast on my leg because I've got a sore on my foot and to make it heal faster and for good, I've got a cast; which makes it awakard to walk around but I'm making it.  An this weekend we're going to spend the weekend with my significant others, family which should be interesting and I hope that it goes over well.  But something that's been on my mind is my mom and dad, I'd like to have some pictures of mom to show Rachel what she looks like and also I'd like to know what my dad looks like.  Because I've got no memories of my dad and I'd like to at least be able to  know what my dad looks like.  Anyway I'm also trying to broaden my tech horizons, because I've used Unix or Linux for a majority of my life and still love it ; but I wanted to broaden it even further.  Like for example using sparc hardware anyway I'm off for now.....

Struggling at times

Well the past few days I've been struggling to keep my head above water and it's been hard.  But I know that things will get better, just seems like things won't let up right now.  Like for example I was in a hospital and I almost had a panic attack, which looking back I would've have not gotten out in time I would've had one; but it would've been a good place to have one.  But some things that help me is Journaling and writing in my blog, which I've noticed that I've not done either one in awhile and that yes I've should've done it sooner.  Which I know things will eventually get better just things are so relentless sometimes and times will get hard.  Also there's very people I vent too, mostly because it either gets lost in translation or with some cruel people the truth gets twisted.  So I either journal, blog and go to one of the few people; vent to them.  An if I feel like I  need a psych evaluation, I definitely go to somebody that can do something about it, because talk is so cheap lately and that's because some things for some people it's just out of their control or abilities.  Just how I feel today....