Rough time

Well after being accused of being a snitch and getting screwed out of my back surgery today, needless to say I'm a bit pissed (that's a understatement, there ever was one).  But on the sunny side I talked to my brother (love you James), but I'll be going to get some other things and I'll be spending time with my honey.  But all will be going to get better, anyway later on...

The big day

Well tomorrow is the big day for me I'll be having my back surgery, I'm a little bit nervous; but who wouldn't be on a major surgery.  I'm just hoping I'll be pain free or at least in significantly less pain.  I've got major plans for after I'm healed, since I'll be starting college next month, an they have a gym there; I'll be able to exercise their.  An speaking of weight I'm at my goal weight which is 250 pounds.  An that's 60 pounds less then my high school weight and 115 pounds less then my max weight; which was 365 pounds.  Well that's all for now, later on and keep on the sunny side...

Back surgery next week

Well I'll be having back surgery next week as I'm writing this it'll be on 07/23/2014 I'm nervous and relieved at the same time.  I'm nervous about going under the knife,  but relieved that I'll be out of pain.  I've been in pain for so long, I'd like to be able to smoke pot again; because the idea of being on pills scares me.  Due to pain I've been committed to a psych hospital, hate those fucking places except for the one outside of Radford Virginia saint albens that was a good one so if I ever needed to go back I'm going there.  Till later peace and chicken grease...